It seems my writing this year will be split between my blog and my actual paper journal that I am using. Announcement! It's official. This weekend starts my first weekend towards earning a 200 hr-ryt certificate. Over the next 9 months, once a weekend every month, I will attend training to become a yoga instructor. I'm really looking forward to this. Just knowing that I will be doing this gives me a new sense of purpose. :) Much prayer and pondering went into this. It definitely feels like the right thing to do.
This evening I had the opportunity to go to the temple. I will say, it is a blessing living much closer to a temple. E and M had activity girls this evening and Curtis was awesome and took them. He's such a good daddy and husband! Moving is stressful. Mom and dad called on Sunday and I was telling mom that I feel like I might as well just had a baby. The stress is about the same. It was good talking to them. They will be home from their mission soon. (2 weeks) Not sure when they'll come out here to visit...they don't even know where they want to live. Where ever it is, I just want them to be happy.
Sunday after church, we celebrated Clara's 5th birthday! She's such a big girl, but yet she's still my baby. She got a new bike for her birthday. It kind of scares her to ride it. I'm not sure why. She likes to try, so that's good. Michelle Alexander brought her neice Abbi with her. It was fun to have them here to help celebrate Clara's b'day. We've had so many treats over the past several days. There was so much to celebrate! Fri happen to be Friday the 13th. Saturday, in the day, Curtis took all 4 girls to the Magic House as part of Clara's birthday celebration. I think they all had a good time. (I went grocery shopping and later went for a brief and chilly motorcycle ride.) Saturday was Pi day. (3/14/15 or 3.1415...) The King family had a Pi party. There were many kinds of yummy pie to try. Sunday we celebrated Clara's b'day with cupcakes and icecream. Mon night was FHE and we went out for ice cream. Today is St. Patty's day. M's class had a little party with treats. The activity for activity girls tonight also included treats. Not sure about anyone else, but I'm sugared out!
Sunday was also fast Sunday which includes testimony meeting. We weren't prepared for that. It's been a few weeks since we've been to church. 2 weeks ago church/ Stake conference was cancelled/rescheduled due to snow storm. Last week was Stake Conference. We forgot that it was fast Sunday! oops! Hopefully we'll catch it next time. God is aware of us and our needs. I'm grateful for the testimonies and lessons that were given on Sunday. They really touched my heart. I feel like I've been struggling with various goals and I've felt like maybe I'm failing. I have mentally re-evaluated them but 'writing' it down will be more helpful. Remembering to continue to put my faith and trust in God, no matter what is something that will help me the most. That reminder came from an inspiring talk/article from the Meridian magazine online. (Trust God No Matter What by Darla Isackson Feb 22, 2015 ldsmag.com) Matthew 6:25-34 is also an excellent reminder. All too often I worry about too many things. It's no good for anybody. Remember to trust God and know that He knows my needs. At times, it's too easy to let myself feel insignificant. It's hard to know if any of what I do matters. Occasionally, with gentle prompting from me, Curtis will remind me of what he appreciates about me. Nancy is such a sweet heart and a stinker! She can be so cuddly and it does my heart good! It's hard and sweet when Clara and Nancy want to cuddle with me. These are sweet reminders from God that I am needed. My life is important.
I'm grateful I could go to the temple this evening. Curtis and I last went in Feb. (it's been a month) The temple helps me feel better. I feel like I'm able to regain focus on goals and have some clarity in my thoughts. Something that I've been struggling with is my relationship with Meredith. I see how we are alike and I see how we are opposites. Both seem to cause me anxiety. :( I want to be a better mother for her but I feel she is such a challenge to me. Curtis is fantastic with her. He has worlds of patience with her. It is most definitely a work in progress for me to not lose patience with her so quickly. I'll just keep praying and asking for help.
The other thing I've noticed about this move is that I feel like I'm learning more and more to rely on my Savior. I'll think of other people to ask help in regards to various issues (Dr. Debbie, Wendy, Curtis...etc) Really, I have been keeping prayers in my heart and mind more and more. I hope that I'm doing as my Savior would have me do. I love my family and try to be a good mom and wife. The level of trying varies from day to day...but such is life, right?
